I don’t read newspapers or watch the news because to be perfectly honest I don’t need the extra anxiety of knowing all the tragic things that are going on in the world and even though I avoid news like the plague I am on Instagram so it’s almost impossible to steer clear of major events and tragedies.

I’ve grieved two famous people in my lifetime, Princess Diana and Jade Goody so today when I went on Instagram and noticed a comment on a post that said R.I.P Caroline Flack.  My heart hurt.  I began scrolling through in disbelief and saw more and more tributes until I came across one that had an exerted quote from her which I then had to look for.  When I found it on her Instagram page and read her full comment my heart hurt even more.

“I wanted to write something about mental health day last week but I was knee deep in work. And some days it’s hard to write your feelings of your not in the right place. The last few weeks I’ve been in a really weird place… I find it hard to talk about it .. I guess it’s anxiety and pressure of life … and when I actually reached out to someone they said I was draining. I feel like this is why some people keep their emotions to themselves. I certainly hate talking about my feelings. And being a burden is my biggest fear…. I’m lucky to be able to pick myself up when things feel shit. But what happens if someone can’t . Be nice to people. You never know what’s going on . Ever”

October 14th 2019

It’s devastating that she couldn’t pick herself up one more time but know that feeling of not being able to take it and wanting to leave.  My heart goes out to Caroline, her family and friends at this tragic time.

“Be nice to people” ­­­ Caroline Flack 1979 – 2020

If you or someone you know, is in a crisis and needs help, please call the Samaritans on 116123 from any phone.  I made a call to the Samaritans last year and can honestly and personally say that it really helped to have someone to talk to.