This week I took some time to practice a little self-care. I have to admit it hasn’t been a priority since the lockdown and I guess I fell into auto-pilot and then self-condemnation at the time I had wasted. There was no mental relaxation. I tried meditating, and for those moments or days, I felt ok. Momentary peace but my lack of discipline had me beating myself up for not being consistent and flittering from one thing to the next. When I started being more thoughtful of my time, I managed to set some goals and work towards them haphazardly, (not knocking what I achieved or how). The fact is I did! I rewarded myself with a purchase which turned into a few, followed by the financial panic which I still have yet to take a proper inventory. With the damage already done, I decided to put the purchases to use before the end of the month.
SELF CARE WEEK:
Day One: Used the multifunctional cleaning instrument the Instagram ad made me buy. I followed up with the lavender face mask and removed old nail polish because it was overdue. Picked a colour to repaint but didn’t. I’ll do it tomorrow I told myself.
Day two: Stepped into Garage. Huge sigh but I tried to focus on the boxes. For some reason, I never throw them away. Trying to cancel out the thought that I am a hoarder. Flattened some cardboard boxes and appreciated the little progress I had made. Plus I scanned my arts and crafts section and decided to spatter paint. Forgot how messy this gets and wish I pulled out the tarp at the beginning. Hope it washes off in the rain. Used a couple of flattened cardboard boxes to paint with my son. We painted to quick pictures of trees.
Day three: Finally made a start glittering my Captain’s hat. My Garage is a treasure trove of goodies. Am I a hoarder? I completed two puzzles on an app (I cannot remember when I last did a real-life version). Flattened more boxes in the Garage and recycled. Realised it’s not as bad as I thought (an organised hoarding mess)—Journaled on an app.
Day four: Glittering my Captains hat. Pretty pleased with the look so far. Garage – flattened more boxes and pulled out the Mache Letters, then base coated FAITH. One puzzle.
Note to self: NEED TO REMOVE THE EXCESS STUFF IN THE GARAGE.
I’ll be able to see the progression and have a clearer picture of what to do. (To Do: Remove Clothes, Toys and boxes (Goal))
Day five: Put on a denim mini skirt usually reserved for holidays (was feeling myself as I caught a glimpse in the mirror throughout the day). Arts & Crafts – Basecoat for LOVE, Messaged then called a friend. Mindful singing. Journaled.
(NOTE: Had a feeling of hope and optimism. #winning
Day six: Base coated more Mache Letters. Finally finished beading my Nike’s.
Day seven (Today): Made a meal for myself. (As I’m home alone on the weekends I don’t usually make an effort to cook a full meal for myself). I’m on my 3rd or 4th week of Hellofresh which has really helped with my motivation to eat and eat well. This was their Chicken and Plum Sauce with Mash and Garlicky Cabbage. Was pretty tasty minus the plum sauce which kinda tasted like vomit (I’ll blame them and not me).
(Tonight PAINT NAILS).
I have to admit. When I was in group therapy, and they set self-care tasks for homework, I didn’t bother. I intended to paint my nails because I remembered when I was in the hospital. I attended a pampering session and painted my nails. It seemed different from any of the thousand times I had painted my nails before. At that moment, painting my nails seemed relaxing until this girl freaked out and started shouting at me but for 10 minutes for the first time in my life painting my nails was relaxing. It’s never been that way before because I didn’t consider painting nails as self-care and if I’m honest is usually done in a hurry and as a last-minute thought. This week I realised self-care can be anything pleasing and beneficial to your soul and tonight I’m finally going to paint my nails while watching a film.
Would love to know what things you do as part of self-care?
Have a good week.
c7azybeautiful 